Brittany Ann.
Hi, my name is Brittany.
I live in shitty Western Mass. I go to shows. I wonder about everything. I want to travel the world. I want to experience everything life has to offer. I want to learn and grow and feel emotions to their fullest. I want to feel ambitions and beliefs and discover some of my own. I want to spread the true meaning of life to everywhere and everyone. Day by day.
ILLGOODS
Hi, my name is Brittany.
I live in shitty Western Mass. I go to shows. I wonder about everything. I want to travel the world. I want to experience everything life has to offer. I want to learn and grow and feel emotions to their fullest. I want to feel ambitions and beliefs and discover some of my own. I want to spread the true meaning of life to everywhere and everyone. Day by day.
ILLGOODS
I suck at these.
I always go a week or more without updating. I just forget.
Me and cj got back together. He apologized for everything and he’s made up for it since.
Recon sunday was awesome.
Darkbuster this weekend. W00t!
Bane and Set your Goals next weekend w00t to the M4X!
School is almost over. THANK GOD.
New job is in order? I think so.
Other than that I pretty much hate my life except for my friends and boyfriend who make it worth every minute.
Over.
4 and a half months of my life that were the best spent with anyone.
over.
Let’s see how long I can handle it.
So I haven’t talked to cj since 6ish thursday.
It’s now 10:33 Saturday.
This never happens.
:/
I dont know what to do. I dont want to call him or text him because im ALWAYS the one doing that. And I just wanted to see if he’d think about me just enough to even text me goodnight or something.
Two nights have gone by and he hasnt said good night to either of them.
The best thing ever. About half way through he thanks me for the wal-mart gift card.
Everyone go eat chocolate chip cookie dough pizza flavored poptarts.
Band practice from wednesday. Steve the drummer, makes the most rediculous faces when he’s playing. Hahahahah.
This week…
Was alright. I definately didn’t score brownie points with anything though. Spent more money than I should have, planning on spending the rest of my money this weekend. Shit. I hate money. Wait, I already said that in an earlier post. Well, I’ll say it again…I HATE MONEY.
Anyways, wednesday I went up to cjs and on the way my coolant level alert popped up on my dash. But it went away after i got off the highway. Weird. So I called my dad and he started yelling at me saying that my car cant handle trips like that [its all of an hour] and stuff. So I had to go to Walmart once I got to cjs so that I could buy more antifreeze. After that we kinda just relaxed, watched the A Day to Remember dvd, and then went to Jays for Band Practice. It was hella fun, even though Steve was two hours late. While we waited for Steve we went to cumbys and sat on the floor talking about how gay Western Mass is. It was fun. Kane is filling in for guitar for tommorows show. I got to witness them create an outro. It was so cool. All Kane did was play a rhythm and cj copied it on bass, and then Steve based a drum beat off of that. And voila! So sick.
I’ve been feeling pretty shitty lately besides that. I keep getting this feeling like cj is not as into the relationship anymore. But I said something about it weds, and he said he wasnt annoyed with me at all. And I didnt want to say anything but he knew something was bothering me. So I kinda let it go. But then last night I texted him hey and he just responded with a “hi” and after i asked him whats up he didnt respond to that, and he never texted me or called me to say goodnight. Which he never does… I know it’s just me over reacting, and I hate that. God. This is why I cant handle being in a relationship. Especially one where I only get to see the guy once a week or less. :[
Saturday.
Mmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
Thought.
If someone were to ask me why I like the music that I listen to, this would be my answer.
Every band that I listen to has the same ideas, beliefs and thoughts that I do and they put them in lyrics and play them with the same agressive, powerful, pissed off manner that goes on inside my head.
