Brittany Ann.

I suck at these.

I always go a week or more without updating. I just forget.

Me and cj got back together. He apologized for everything and he’s made up for it since.

Recon sunday was awesome.

Darkbuster this weekend. W00t!

Bane and Set your Goals next weekend w00t to the M4X!

School is almost over. THANK GOD.

New job is in order? I think so.

Other than that I pretty much hate my life except for my friends and boyfriend who make it worth every minute. 

Over.

4 and a half months of my life that were the best spent with anyone.

over.

Let’s see how long I can handle it.

So I haven’t talked to cj since 6ish thursday.

It’s now 10:33 Saturday.

This never happens.

:/

I dont know what to do. I dont want to call him or text him because im ALWAYS the one doing that. And I just wanted to see if he’d think about me just enough to even text me goodnight or something.

Two nights have gone by and he hasnt said good night to either of them.

This week...

Was alright. I definately didn’t score brownie points with anything though. Spent more money than I should have, planning on spending the rest of my money this weekend. Shit. I hate money. Wait, I already said that in an earlier post. Well, I’ll say it again…I HATE MONEY.

Anyways, wednesday I went up to cjs and on the way my coolant level alert popped up on my dash. But it went away after i got off the highway. Weird. So I called my dad and he started yelling at me saying that my car cant handle trips like that [its all of an hour] and stuff. So I had to go to Walmart once I got to cjs so that I could buy more antifreeze. After that we kinda just relaxed, watched the A Day to Remember dvd, and then went to Jays for Band Practice. It was hella fun, even though Steve was two hours late. While we waited for Steve we went to cumbys and sat on the floor talking about how gay Western Mass is. It was fun. Kane is filling in for guitar for tommorows show. I got to witness them create an outro. It was so cool. All Kane did was play a rhythm and cj copied it on bass, and then Steve based a drum beat off of that. And voila! So sick.

I’ve been feeling pretty shitty lately besides that. I keep getting this feeling like cj is not as into the relationship anymore. But I said something about it weds, and he said he wasnt annoyed with me at all. And I didnt want to say anything but he knew something was bothering me. So I kinda let it go. But then last night I texted him hey and he just responded with a “hi” and after i asked him whats up he didnt respond to that, and he never texted me or called me to say goodnight. Which he never does… I know it’s just me over reacting, and I hate that. God. This is why I cant handle being in a relationship. Especially one where I only get to see the guy once a week or less. :[

Thought.

If someone were to ask me why I like the music that I listen to, this would be my answer.

Every band that I listen to has the same ideas, beliefs and thoughts that I do and they put them in lyrics and play them with the same agressive, powerful, pissed off manner that goes on inside my head.

Amazing.

It really was an amazing trip.

First we had to wait around for Bushey FOREVER because he decided to go to Bickfords before we came and got him. We gave him shit for it the entire day. ahahaha

So we get to Worcester to take the train to Boston and we were so confused on what to do. First off the parking area wasn’t even near the train station…the train station was empty pretty much, and the train we needed to take was delayed 45 minutes. Plus by the time we got there it would have been 4ish and we would have had to catch a train back at 6. Fuck that.

So we just drove into Boston. Jay drove because Cj was pissed and didnt want to. So after we got there we had to find a place to park, so we just parked in a Shaws parking lot. But I guess they were too smart for us, because there was a sign that said “parking lot monitored, only 1- 1/2 hour parking limit allowed.” So we just walked around to find a parking garage and found one, so we waited till it was 4 so we can park there for 5 bucks. While we waited we ended up walking around that corner and there was Fenway park!!!!

It was so amazing. We walked down Yawkey way and everything. I took so many pictures. We went into the original souvenir shop where they had a TON of red sox stuff that was so expensive. They had a glass case with autographed balls and broken bats from games.

After that we walked around the perimeter of Fenway since we didnt want to spend the money for a tour, later on we found out it was only 10 bucks. I so wish we knew that before. We saw this old map of Fenway park that was peeling on a wall. We also came across the line of All Star flags that were hanging along the building. And we had to stop and take a picture with Ted Williams putting the hat on the little kid.

After we parked we walked by Fenway again, and made our way towards the Prudential building, where we met up with Arianna, this girl that Jay knew who lives in Cambridge. We ate at this pizza place where there was this huge statue of a naked dude who was flying. Then followed her to a candy store called Candy Heaven. It was like inhaling sugar the entire time I was in there. Rediculous. Then we went into Johnny Cupcakes. I wish I had money cause I would have bought a plain black and white johnny cupcakes shirt. I want one so bad. Next we went to a Newberry Comics store, it was so HUGE! I bought a terror shirt that i’ve never seen before. I love it. Next we went to this other record store called Loony Tunes. I started to get tired so I went outside with Arianna and we sat and talked. She was wicked cool. I hope something happens with Jay and her, cause that’d be sweet. =]

Afterwards we walked back and started to head to the car, we said bye to Arianna and stuff. On our way back we stopped to go down an alley way where we saw graffiti through a window earlier. We went to Burger King where Bushey had a bitch fight with Johnny West over the phone and then got gas where we had a sweet view of Fenway at night. The ride home we ended up getting Lost in Newton and didnt find the highway till an hour later.

I hope we go back soon. And were going on that Fenway tour. I love Boston so much. =]]